Payday!

I adulted today! I paid all my bills! And now I am broke. ~LOL~ No, not really. I put money into my rent account and paid on the AmEx. So I have been thinking about getting a condo. Not sure if I want to do that right now because I think I may have found a place I love if I could ever get into it to see it or do I want to wait and become debt free? I have a total amount of $7800 since I made payments today. If I buy a condo then I am putting roots down here. And while that sort of seems okay, everything has been moving so quickly. Seriously, I got a wild hair across my ass to get a car and that day I did. I'm not sure if the condo isn't the same thing. Not that buying a home is ever a really bad idea.

I'm really excited about Saturday! Randy and Angie will meet Playmate! This is so important to me. I want them to like each other so much. I know there are variables I can't control but I hope this goes well. Sir Randy and I talked about what I wanted and where I saw myself. I do want Playmate to come and be social. He doesn't have to want to join the House, I would just like to be in his steel and still have my very special relationship with Angie and the House. I only want it all, right? Patience, girlie.. patience. Everything will work out as it should.

Let's go back to the other night with sensation play. I don't have to do it again. I think I rushed it. I'm still not entirely comfortable with Sir Randy touching me. Since trust is a HUGE piece of play, I might not have been there yet. The connection with him might not be secure enough yet. He would try to lean against my back for comfort and security (I think) and I would flinch. That's my shortcoming. Yes, I think I rushed it. I think I need to work on reaching out and touching him more often. I would like to find a way to get more comfortable with him.

I have been embracing my Gorean roots more as of late and I am happy with it. I have submitting two papers to the House so far and both were well received. Master Raid wants me to read my paper on submission to the slaves gaggle on Sunday. It's an honor. My thoughts and opinions will become part of the historical knowledge of the House. I'm happy they find me worthy.