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Don't have much to say this morning.

Went out to dinner with my friend Jason. Listened to him bitch about work. I like him but wow, he is one of the most negative people on the face of the planet. He had me listen to him as both a friend and as a supervisor. I wanted to stab him or myself with a spoon after listening to him.

Didn't sleep real well last night. Playmate and I kept texting. He works over nights so I was up and down most of the night answering. There are times when it feels we are both wavering on this relationship. He thinks I think he doesn't have the strength to do what is necessary, that I mistake his kindness for weakness. I have felt the strength in his arm and in his grip. I wish he understood how I felt about him.

Not going to go down this road this morning. I haven't had enough sleep to look at this from all angles.